I Need To See You
Posted on 22. Feb, 2009 by Josh Agerton in Formation, The Fam
Sleep…it’s not over-rated. It’s really good. But with a 5 year old and two 2 year olds it’s rare to make it through the night without having to get up with someone. Odds are just against a full night of sleep.
Lately our beautiful little ones have fallen into a pattern of coming into our room in the middle of the night and wanting to sleep with Leslie and I. We had worked hard in the early months and years to have them sleep in their own beds but it feels like we are digressing now…even with Benjamin.
So last night Leslie was tucking Benjamin in the bed and going through the usual routine…blankie, sippy-cup, covers pulled tight, re-cap of the day and prayers. She was reminding him that he was a “big boy” now and that he needed to stay in his bed all night. “If you wake up in the middle of the night, just get a drink from your sippy cup right here, grab your blankie, roll over and go back to sleep.”
His reply, “But if I get scared, I need to see you.”
Wow. How true, honest and primal. We don’t want to be alone when we are scared. When Benjamin wakes up in the middle of the night thinking about spiders or bees attacking him, he just wants to see his Mommy and Daddy. I’m so proud of him for voicing this. I wish sometimes I could be this honest…to say what I feel and express my deepest desires. To even realize my deepest fears and voice them to my Father.
As we start out the next few weeks at Cornerstone talking about prayer, I think of Benjamin’s words…”I need to see you.” What a great prayer to begin with. Sometimes we just need to know he is there.
I pray that all of us can learn to share our hearts with the Father that way. I need practice in this as well.
